For more than 34 years, I had a decent idea of who I was and what I was supposed to do in life.
- get good grades in school
- graduate from high school
- attend college
- get good grades in college
- graduate from college
- get a decent paying job
- get into a good business school
- get good grades in business school
- graduate from business school with well paying job
- own my own condo
- get married
- have kids
So now I have the most adorable 4 month old ever (yes, I am biased), and I am sitting here thinking, now what!? I am not working, because of our recent move and my health issues having said beautiful baby. Not that I mind, so much, but I feel so ill prepared for this new phase of my life.
I look around and think that the only people I talk to each day on a regular basis are Bailey, my husband, and my parents. Bailey doesn't reply back to me. Mark is quite busy at work, but at times can send me an e-mail. My phone bills are atrocious because I call my parents multiple times a day. But I don't get to see them.
My head is filled with all sorts of information, but none pertaining to how to get an infant to sleep in her own crib through the night, or how to deal with painful mastitis. Argh!
And now, with the financial markets on an epic roller coaster ride, I wish I could just take the time to observe what is going on. What a great time to learn! But I cannot. There is no time. I hardly have the chance to take a shower.
I would never give this experience back. Do not get me wrong. But I think something should be said about how difficult the transition becomes... I was prepared for our daughter's birth. I read up on everything you could ever know about miscarriage and autoimmune diseases. But I didn't crack open a single book about parenting. I was too scared to get ahead of myself, out of fear she would not arrive to this world safely.
So here we are. I think she needs a diaper change. I can do that. She coos when she's content, and that warms my heart because I feel like I got a few things right. And when she cries, it's a process of elimination. I'm okay with that now.
But wow, I wish I would stop looking at well dressed women with awe when they are going about their business on a random Tuesday. I wish for a minute, that I was one of them again.
28 January 2009
26 January 2009
Baby Boom
It must be that phase in my life where so many people I know are having babies. I know of four new babies born this month alone. I'm still waiting for confirmation that a fifth bundle of joy is finally here.
Three due in February.
Two due in May...
Two due in June...
And more to come, I am sure.
I don't know if this is good or bad. But it sure is amusing...
Three due in February.
Two due in May...
Two due in June...
And more to come, I am sure.
I don't know if this is good or bad. But it sure is amusing...
08 January 2009
The City Episode 3 - Since Mina Can't See It In Manila
Erin has a long distance boyfriend, who is visiting. Which means Whitney feels like she's infringing on Erin and Duncan's space. So she has more motivation to find an apartment.
Erin and her boyfriend are so lovey dovey, they break out with the "I love yous" and apparently this is big news that travels all over the City. Snooze.
Meanwhile at a photo shoot, Whitney told Olivia how hard it is for her to get an apartment in NYC. Olivia said, oh, we should chat sometime about neighborhoods, etc--and don't just get the first place you see. Then Jay calls to tell her he found an apartment for her, so Whitney takes off to see the apartment.
The apartment is really nice. It's in Chelsea, in a high rise, on the 30th floor, so there are floor to ceiling windows and a small terrace. The rent could easily be, like $6000 per month. It's that nice. A chick who works in PR at DVF cannot afford it, but if you're on your own reality show, of course you can! It's 2 blocks away from Erin's place and Whitney can most likely walk to work (not that she would in those stilettos she wears, it would ruin the soles!) And the leasing agent it all, "I kind of need to know right now, because it's the only one available in the building." So of course, Whitney takes it. Thank goodness it's a doorman building because now all the people watching the show can figure out where she lives and which floor she lives on.
So, Olivia is a little annoyed at Whitney for not taking her advice, but says, oh, that's nice you have an apartment. Then goes on a mini-lecture on how Whitney shouldn't be so dependent on Jay. It was so funny to see their co-worker, Elizabeth's eyeroll when she overheard this stupid conversation. Like, uh yeah... I'm trying to work here, so please be quiet.
Then later you see Olivia complain to her cousin Nevan about Whitney getting with the program and that she's no longer this LA chick. She has to get tougher. And Nevan contributes not a lot to the show. He does say he got a $100 fine for spitting on a sidewalk. He's sooooo classy.
Whitney moves into her new apartment--Mina... her couch is hideous. But you would expect that, because her outfits have also been nuts lately. For someone who works in fashion... Anyway, Jay freaked out when he heard that Erin and her boyfriend exchanged the I love yous. He was all, I think that's a little soon. You shouldn't throw those words around when you don't mean it. Blah blah blah. Whitney is in total agreement that she and Jay should just keep things light and not rush into anything. But she did say that she doesn't want to be strung along if things aren't working.
Overall, it wasn't the best episode. Not like that one where Olivia totally embarrasses herself in front of Manolo Blahnik by saying she wore his shoes at her deb and he acts like he just met her for the first time and thinks she's a little strange (soon after telling Whitney that she is 'good friends' with Manolo - liar liar pants of fire!)
Bromance on the other hand was funny. Brody had one on one time with all the guys. It was bromantic--drinks outside with a firepit going. You know, he was trying to get to know them better. Some of them were so emotional that they cried. Precious.
Then they crazy obstacle course challenges--hilarious stuff, like jumping barrels with a teeny tiny dirt bike, etc. Brody said to the camera that it didn't matter who won, he just wanted to observe how they were getting along and to see who were the douches and the jerks. Femi, the trash taking token black dude stands out as biggest jerk thus far. He's still on the show, of course. Else no drama.
The dude that was booted off the show was a douche. He got so drunk the previous night that he looked awful when everyone when out for burgers. The douchebag barfed after watching every eat. Then he barfed multiple times in the van. All the other guys were jumping back or gagging, to prevent their own sympathy barfs. Clearly he deserved to leave.
Erin and her boyfriend are so lovey dovey, they break out with the "I love yous" and apparently this is big news that travels all over the City. Snooze.
Meanwhile at a photo shoot, Whitney told Olivia how hard it is for her to get an apartment in NYC. Olivia said, oh, we should chat sometime about neighborhoods, etc--and don't just get the first place you see. Then Jay calls to tell her he found an apartment for her, so Whitney takes off to see the apartment.
The apartment is really nice. It's in Chelsea, in a high rise, on the 30th floor, so there are floor to ceiling windows and a small terrace. The rent could easily be, like $6000 per month. It's that nice. A chick who works in PR at DVF cannot afford it, but if you're on your own reality show, of course you can! It's 2 blocks away from Erin's place and Whitney can most likely walk to work (not that she would in those stilettos she wears, it would ruin the soles!) And the leasing agent it all, "I kind of need to know right now, because it's the only one available in the building." So of course, Whitney takes it. Thank goodness it's a doorman building because now all the people watching the show can figure out where she lives and which floor she lives on.
So, Olivia is a little annoyed at Whitney for not taking her advice, but says, oh, that's nice you have an apartment. Then goes on a mini-lecture on how Whitney shouldn't be so dependent on Jay. It was so funny to see their co-worker, Elizabeth's eyeroll when she overheard this stupid conversation. Like, uh yeah... I'm trying to work here, so please be quiet.
Then later you see Olivia complain to her cousin Nevan about Whitney getting with the program and that she's no longer this LA chick. She has to get tougher. And Nevan contributes not a lot to the show. He does say he got a $100 fine for spitting on a sidewalk. He's sooooo classy.
Whitney moves into her new apartment--Mina... her couch is hideous. But you would expect that, because her outfits have also been nuts lately. For someone who works in fashion... Anyway, Jay freaked out when he heard that Erin and her boyfriend exchanged the I love yous. He was all, I think that's a little soon. You shouldn't throw those words around when you don't mean it. Blah blah blah. Whitney is in total agreement that she and Jay should just keep things light and not rush into anything. But she did say that she doesn't want to be strung along if things aren't working.
Overall, it wasn't the best episode. Not like that one where Olivia totally embarrasses herself in front of Manolo Blahnik by saying she wore his shoes at her deb and he acts like he just met her for the first time and thinks she's a little strange (soon after telling Whitney that she is 'good friends' with Manolo - liar liar pants of fire!)
Bromance on the other hand was funny. Brody had one on one time with all the guys. It was bromantic--drinks outside with a firepit going. You know, he was trying to get to know them better. Some of them were so emotional that they cried. Precious.
Then they crazy obstacle course challenges--hilarious stuff, like jumping barrels with a teeny tiny dirt bike, etc. Brody said to the camera that it didn't matter who won, he just wanted to observe how they were getting along and to see who were the douches and the jerks. Femi, the trash taking token black dude stands out as biggest jerk thus far. He's still on the show, of course. Else no drama.
The dude that was booted off the show was a douche. He got so drunk the previous night that he looked awful when everyone when out for burgers. The douchebag barfed after watching every eat. Then he barfed multiple times in the van. All the other guys were jumping back or gagging, to prevent their own sympathy barfs. Clearly he deserved to leave.
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